Catch Up

See I warned that I probably wouldn't be very good at keeping up with this blog. Or maybe because I said that I doomed myself...who knows. It has been a couple months, and a lot has happened. I feel that our lives are completely different since that last post. (I may be exaggerating a tad) Big changes happened, and we have certain members of our family who don't handle change very well.

If I recall correctly on one of my past posts, I mentioned that we were unsure about Carter's school situation, that things weren't going as well as we had hoped. Well, we decided after a really bad week, that the best place for Carter was at home. So we pulled him out of school and started him with on-line school. It was a heart-breaking, gut retching experience. I think I cried for a week straight. Carter, of course took it the hardest. It was the best thing for him. He is happier, filled with less anxiety, has had better social interactions. But doing school at home is a daily struggle, some days are better than others, but it is still hard. I have come to see how smart my boy is, and how I am not equipped to teach him. Through the grace of the Lord, Carter got into a Charter school that we feel really good about, that is pro-active about his needs, for First Grade. This was a HUGE weight off our shoulders. And Carter is excited to go. Another path that we are starting.

Then in February, the company my husband was working for went out of business. He lost his job. Now we have been here before. There is fear, anxiety, stress, anger all wrapped up into this experience. Phil actually handled it pretty well. Carter was a little sad, but also happy because daddy was home! Me, it depended on the day. We saw many miracles during this time. Not only did Phil and I grow Spiritually, but there were sweet tender moments that Carter experience. Our prayers were heard. We felt the prayers of others around us. Phil found a really good job a week and a half later. Like I said we saw miracles. Our family has been going through this transition stage. I am not sure if we have found our grounding yet. Changes are still happening in our lives. Not ground shaking, but still change is change: Landon turned one (ONE!!), Carter lost his first tooth, we have re-organized our place, Phil was released as the Young Men Stake Secretary and then called as the Second Consoler in the Young Men and assistance Scout Master. We have been actively been seeking to have structure in our lives, so that as a family and individually we can thrive.

 Life is a journey. Always changing, always learning. I have been learning a lot more about myself as I have grown, than I think I ever did as a kid/teenager/young adult. Every day may be a battle, but I have the greatest support system. I really do. And I think most of us, would agree. There are people who are always there, whenever we need them. For my people, I am grateful. I have no idea what the Lord has in store for me and my favorite people, but He has blessed me with the best people possible to help on my journey. So there it is folks, the happenings of our lives the past few months. Hopefully I will be able to keep up with this blog, it is therapeutic, and nice to have an outlet for the ramblings in my brain. So we shall see.

Life is a Journey.

Wow, it has been a month since my last post...I am slacking here. I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season! December went by way too fast, and was way too stressful for me. Carter was struggling socially in school, he started medication, Phil and Landon both got sick. We had to take Landon to the Dr. office on Christmas Eve, and then to the ER early Christmas morning. Fun stuff I tell ya. ( Landon is doing much much better.) But this month is while still stressful, (my lack of working brain cells makes things worse) things are getting better. Carter is trying his second dosage of medication (it is a process, one that could be long and stressful), he has also been approved for a social worker to work with him at school for his social skills, (a MAJOR yay!!). This year our goal is to get organized. To organize our time, organize our thoughts, organize our house. Simplify is going to be our motto.

I realized today, as we were traveling home from a therapy appointment, that stress will always be apart of my life. Life will never be easy. I need to get use to a lot of stress in my life, because let's be honest I will probably always have a high level of stress in my life. It is the life I have blessed with, and I honestly wouldn't change it. But I do need to handle my stress better. I have learned that I stress eat...yay! I rely on the Lord, every second, to help me through the day. To get us to bed time. But I am learning that I need to rely on Him, for answers, for solutions, for hope and to help me find happiness. Happiness/joy combats the effect of stress. I need to get back into my hobbies, doing things that I enjoy to do. My wonderful husband and parents bought me a Cricut Explore for Christmas. It is pretty amazing. It is one piece of equipment that will help me with craft hobby. I need to start getting back into cooking and baking...trying new things, planning out meals, having fun with it. I need to get back into sewing. I don't want to sound like I need to be constantly busy and always engaged in something. But I need to turn to these things more, as an outlet. And reading. I am behind on my reading.

I love my family. I love the life that I have been blessed with. There are many great, and wonderful things that I get to enjoy. I am sorry if this post has been whiny. Venting is always a good thing, in my opinion. Life is a journey. And I hope to be able to start sharing the fun and less stressful side of my journey.